If you don't want to read my whining then turn away now!!!!!
First I will start off with no complaint but I will warn it it will lead into ranting!!!
Miles has grown so much in the last 6 months. I took note because he just turned 3 1/2 yesterday. He has said more words and singed more words and even signed "fruit-snacks please." He is more social, he wants to play with other kids and yet he is not sure how to join them still. Lately I have been able to let him play further away from me on the playground. I am sure I looked like one of those annoying 'helicopter' parents that never let the kid do anything for themselves... but if I didn't do that he would be gone; the boy can run fast... and he is quiet. If you did not want to sprint you had to stay as close as you could. Now he might go farther away but will turn around and come back.
One of the newest things I have noticed is how Miles plays with toys. If you watch him closely you can see the back and forth conversation going on in his head between two objects. To an outsider he might look funny since he is playing quietly as opposed to Avery having a strange conversation with himself: "It's time to go into the deep, that is absurd" Avery says to himself while playing with two things. If you think about it Avery's behavior is strange, but it is age appropriate.
Watching Miles makes me wonder about what the therapists he was seeing from age 2-3 would say now. Since Miles is non-verbal it seems like anything he did or did not do was labeled a red flag for Autism. If I say Avery did the same thing at that age that didn't seem to matter... because Avery could talk after age 2. One person said they did not think Miles showed enough emotions and tantrums were age appropriate ... and that was a flag. Another working with him at the same time said that his tantrums when not wanting to do her tasks... was a flag. They seemed to be focused on things like the fact that he used his hands instead of utensils and could not dress himself instead of what mattered. And guess what... he CAN do BOTH now almost all by himself.
CHANGE OF SUBJECT:
I should not care what people think of me, and most the time I really don't. However sometimes I get upset when I am confused about what people think or if I think their reason for not liking me or talking about me is for superficial reasons. Right now I am not always happy with my own body image and being overweight. But I still tell myself that I love me and we are working on that part. I go to the gym at the rec center 2 times a week and my family goes on 30-60 minute walks almost every day. At the rec-center--- that is the problem. I get sick of these super skinny, 'I don't want to get my hair and make up wet in the SWIMMING POOL", teenagers. I am getting healthy and all they can do is comment on how fat I am. I am not even making it up on occasion I have heard them talk about me... when I am right there. Most the time it is before or after we take the kids swimming and I am in the locker room with Miles. I'm sorry but I hope they get twice as fat and have an even harder time loosing weight after they have kids. I love my children and my extra weight is worth it for them.
ONE MORE... even though I could go on forever.
Learn how to drive people.... I go the speed limit.... deal with it and GET OFF YOUR DAMN PHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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