The Unlikely Candidates
Follow My Feet - The Unlikely Candidates

There's a fork in the road in front of me,
At the crossroads of identity.
The Devil is standing to the left.
He says "Either way, they both lead to death."

And the high road's steady and steep,
And the low road's easy and deep.
Guess I'll follow, follow, follow my feet.
Guess I'll follow, follow, follow my feet.

I've a friend who lies and steals and cheats.
Always taking more than he can eat.
He says "To get what I want, I would probably kill.
If I don't take it, somebody else will."

And the high road's steady and steep,
And the low road's easy and deep.
Guess I'll follow, follow, follow my feet.
Guess I'll follow, follow, follow my feet.

There is no time,
Falling behind,
Plant harmony,
Or burn the tree.

I have a friend who loves humanity,
Braves bullets in war-torn countries.
He traded a life of wealth to help the poor and ill.
He says "If I don't do it, nobody will."

And the high road's steady and steep,
And the low road's easy and deep.
Guess I'll follow, follow, follow my feet.
Guess I'll follow, follow, follow my feet.

I don't know where,
I don't know where,
Where my path will lead, but I'll follow my feet and
Hopefully they'll keep me on the ground and I'll keep walking to the sound

Follow, follow, follow my feet.
Follow, follow, follow your feet.

Wake Me Up

"Wake Me Up" - Avicii feat Aloe Blacc

Feeling my way through the darkness
Guided by a beating heart
I can't tell where the journey will end
But I know where to start

They tell me I'm too young to understand
They say I'm caught up in a dream
Well life will pass me by if I don't open up my eyes
Well that's fine by me

[2x]
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn't know I was lost

I tried carrying the weight of the world
But I only have two hands
Hope I get the chance to travel the world
But I don't have any plans

Wish that I could stay forever this young
Not afraid to close my eyes
Life's a game made for everyone
And love is the prize

[2x]
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn't know I was lost

Didn't know I was lost
I didn't know I was lost
I didn't know I was lost
I didn't know

Brianna come back!

I miss Brianna.

Who is Brianna?  She used to work in the childcare room at the Chilson Recreation Center.  She was familiar with Miles, how Miles is.  Brianna would not call me to the room unless it was very important.

This new girl... I don't know her name... is getting on my nerves.  It has been months since Brianna left and I thought her replacement was ok.  


Every Tuesday and Thursday for the last 2 years we have been dropping the kids off for 45mins - hour while we workout and then we pick up the kids and use the pool.  Avery plays with the other kids or on the computer and Miles reads books or plays with certain toys he likes.

Four out of the the last five times we have gone the girl in the childcare has made me upset.  The first two times it was because I arrived to pick up an unhappy Miles and come to find out it was because he pooped his pants and she didn't change him.  One of those times you could not smell him though and even I was surprised so I let that slide a little.  

The third incident happened as follows:  I get called down to childcare.  I arrive and there are only THREE children in the room.  Two of the children are crying; a little boy and Miles.  The little boy appears to me to be under the age of 2 and is crying because he wants his mom (or maybe he pooped his pants since she does not check).  Miles is crying because the little boy is crying.  The gal proceeds to tell me that she can't call the little guys mom because she is at swim lessons... huh, what?  So what you are saying is that you have to interrupt MY workout so that I can remove 2/3 of the kids.  Ok fine, I guess I should not be so selfish.... over it, move on.

The next day we are there; this is the day I thought I was sending the cat to his grave.  I am very upset and stressed out.  It was a weird day and I was counting on using the elliptical to get out some stress.  It was a REALLY good workout and I was pumped up for sure.  When I am done I take time to stretch and relax... meditate a bit.  While I am stretching I hear "Andrew or Shawna, please report to childcare."  SERIOUSLY???? I get up and I go there.  Miles is crying again because a very little guy wants his mom.  The kids crying was very upsetting to tell you the truth.  If I was in a room with him I would be upset too.  This time she proceeds to tell me that Miles did not want to be comforted and she could not get him to stop crying.  CALL THE BABY'S MOM. is what I wanted to yell.  Remove the crying child and he will be fine.  So again I have to remove my two kids.  Then while we were in the pool I hear her call someone else to childcare... probably the baby's mom. 

I understand Miles does not express his needs.  I understand he does not want that weirdo to comfort him.  I understand that she is probably under paid.  I get it.  I just do know why she has to call me so much.  Brianna knew that Miles would cry if  a baby was crying.  She would let him cry and try to calm the other crying child.  She would not call me unless Miles was hurting himself (throwing himself to the ground) or a danger to other kids (throwing toys). That only happened a few times.  I miss that.

something new

We don't have and iPad or tablet of any sort.  Andrew and I  have thought about getting one for Miles, however we did not want to buy one if Miles did not use it. Avery would use it, but we would mostly get it for a learning tool for Miles. 

I asked his teachers at school if he used the one they have in the classroom. Their reply was "Not really."  Later when I spent more time in the classroom I notice Miles mostly avoided the iPad because the other 3 kids in his class would fight over it.  He thought it was best to avoid that and I can't blame him.

Today in his weekly speech therapy the iPad was brought out. Miles LOVED it.  No surprise he already knows how to navigate it... I have no idea!  He loved the piano and drum apps!  Next his therapist tried an app that asked Miles to pick an item from a bunch of pictures.  This one was kind of funny because Miles would pick the coolest looking picture, like the candy apple, instead of the item prompted like vacuum.

This is where I am going to cry.  She then had Miles do one that would say "find the letter ____".  She did 5 or 6 of them with Miles (before he pushed the 'quit' button) and he got all of them right.  I have never seen him do this.  Since he does not say much it is hard to know how much he knows sometimes.  I know what some of you are thinking, why don't ask him that stuff with what I have at home?  He does not want to do that stuff with me and I am not going to force him.  He would rather do that stuff with therapists, teachers and I suppose now maybe the iPad.  He also knew the number 4 and did the number 4 two different times.  I wished he would not have pushed the quit button because I would have loved to know how much he does know!